Nature

It's been quite the trialing season for many.
I can't ignore that I'm one to complain in these moments.
Yes I am one of many who take for granted all that we should keep.
I often think of immigration. Not much politics. A lot about religion and faith.
One thing is certain that our nature is an important piece of information.
I've noticed over the years more and more of who I am in this inner manner.
Much of it I'm afraid to admit I'm not always so proud of. I can add that though it makes me feel small I know it's also all relative to one of a billion people who may also feel the same. Music is much that cap that seals my cup. I do understand that though my heart, body, and soul revolves around this magical power it doesn't always seem so inviting when it lives in you. For my sake I mention that though I'm not hungry I know that I will be hungry regardless of how I feel as it is my nature that I too will grow famished in time without the right food.

Music, passions, dreams, and faith I believe may just be the same. I know there has to be something implanted in the human DNA that causes the urge to understand all that is misunderstood. We are indeed curious beings who search and voyage on this ambition.

Personally, I run from music... maybe more so break from it though I can't really do just about anything without listening to "music" and letting it get my sadness, joy, or the "led" out as we say through my day. What I mean is I let myself take-in more than I give out.

Growing up I was always taught respect, good measure, and precaucion.
Honesty is a big part of any one person lifestyle and though I sometimes make excuses for the things I feel are correct the truth may be otherwise.

I sometime's believe that breaking or taking time off from the many sorts of outlets our souls strive on is at moments that way back to the light. I noticed that a life, song, or a faith gesture well-planned out or fabricated isn't quite as rich or real as when you leave it all up to pure heart-motives where you abandon all hope to your art, faith, and dreams.

I believe knowing ourselves is probably half the journey.
I'm always afraid to lose my mind, to lose my faith, to lose my heart.
But truly you can't lose what you aren't willing to give up.

Though we are in nature the way we appear or believe to be.
Nature gives you tools, but I ultimately always cling to the words a woman once spoke to me.

In my heart it penetrates and bounces around like an echo in a cave as in my own interpretation she made me understand that:

Free-will is one of God's greatest gift to us.

Though all sorts of question, decisions, beliefs in all forms around the world we disagree on. I always dreamed of something pretty insane.

If we could listen maybe we could change.

I'm in line for some change myself. I've accepted that my nature is very musical and faith driven, but it doesn't mean that I too can't sharpen the dull blades that I use everyday through faults, failures, and doubts. I know that all of our heads put together are smarter than one, but truly I hope that true openess in the forms of truth within us, our beliefs, and families are worth that effort.

My love and prayers are always with a world, a people, and a heart that is in need.

-Emanuel